What i see.

I saw this cute old lady who looked 80% like Edna Mode from The Incredibles in the same bus with me while im on my way to school this afternoon! Though not as fashionable as Edna, she have the same hairstyle and wears a black specs too!

the cutest thing is when her specs begins sliding down almost to the tip of her nose when she was finding herself a seat! aww...

she should be in her 60s already, but still strong enough to chase after the bus! 佩服!
She's.... just so adorable!!! =)

Another incident happened when i was on my way walking back home from the busstop this evening...

this cute little boy was about to hand the few coins with his tiny little hand to the auntie selling ice-cream along the street... the next moment i felt something bypassing me with a speed of a lighting... its the ice-cream boy... =)

i saw an orange plastic bag hanging over the right handle of his bike...

he must be worrying about his melting ice-cream and wants to get home asap so as to enjoy a solid ice-cream, thus explains the bursting speed.... Lol...

been feeling pretty shag lately... i dunno y, but probably partly due to my 'auntie-visit'.... hais...

anyway, i had a wonderful saturday last week... me and hong u held a picnic for lia's advanced birthday celebration... we had fun... hopefully lia enjoyed it too... gonna talk more abt it next time, im in sleepy mode now... ciaos~

Wishing for a big round sun.

woke up accidentally this morning (technically, shld be ytd morning) at freaking 6:45am!!
tried to get back to sleep but ah man's alarm clock started to ring... i couldn't sleep at all!!! =(
actual plan was to wake up at 7:30am and go for run, but was too tired after waking up so early in the morning, so din run in the end... hais... there was no sun in the morning!! wad a waste! arugh...
anyway, met up wif lujun at jp in the noon time and pass her past semester's exam qns and answers... finally managed to get my shoes! the old shoes im currently wearing now is in a serious terrible stage, the shoe base is almost worn off totally... =\ spent money again.. well, at least i have a lower risk of getting tripped or having shoes to break into half while im walking wif it... old shoes, u're so comfortable to wear and have brought me to so many places~ i'll miss you!

went home at around 2 plus after some window-shopping wif lujun... hmm, weather was kinda warm when i walk home, still enjoy the journey back home wif the company of the sun and my mp3 though... i've been fallin in love wif sunny weather recently, it's funny, i dunno... seems like the older i get the more i tend to appreciate the presence of the sun?? or maybe its bcos of the song in my mp3 that makes me feel good wif the sunny weather? haha.. been listening to farewell my summer love by mj for quite sometime already... but still... the more i listen, the more i love it! i can keep on replaying the track in my mp3 throughout my entire journey for like 1 whole hr, everyday! it is that awesome! at least, for me! really happy! =)

had salad for lunch at home, only managed to finish 1/4 of it... man, the portion was huge! i hate baby carrots, eww~ gonna take a run tml morning wif sis! im feeling really sleepy now, hope im able to wake up early for the run... AND A BRIGHT ROUND GOLDEN SUN FOR ME PLEASE! i'll be grateful! =)

It's gonna be tough.

HAIZ...
sch's starting tml!!! and my lesson starts tml too!!!
oh no, really dun feel ready yet.
i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, but this holiday seems to be passing way too fast for me to settle down and prepare for sch... not that i've not fail any module b4.. well, i mean, this time round is really different, i was supposed to have graduated from SIM ALREADY. unlike the past few semesters, i can still consider myself lucky to be promoted to the next semester despite failing one module. but this time, i failed macro and it stops me from graduating! arugh, yixian, can u be smarter or even work harder? is this wad u want? look at wad have u done to bring urself into this shit?
this class that im gonna be studying wif seems rather cold towards repeat students based on my past few experience... perhaps they jus feel that there's no need to be friendly wif us since they already have their own clique in the class... well, im just worried abt having problems wif grouping for macro assignment.. cos till now, i still hav no idea whose repeating macro wif me! emily failed law, not macro! how i wish we can retake the same module together... its really scary to be in a place where u dunno any single person! i really dun feel good, but wad else can i do? im the one who causes this disaster, i cant blame anyone but myself... =( i jus hope that everything can go smoothly... really hoping to have no trouble in finding a suitable group for macro and see familiar faces and grp wif them! issit too much to ask for? hmm.. till then i can find a parttime job and start earning money... im feeling empty as i see my bank acct drop... gosh, when will i be able to lead a better life? i miss those days when i can use my ability to earn my own allowance, working hard everyday w/o knowing that pay day is coming soon and have no plans on where and wad to spend yet.... hongu mentioned all these to me few days ago, i have exactly the same thought as him! its good to feel useful, but im feeling like a trash now... -.-
this is really bad... =(
sometimes, i do feel that some ppl is looking down on me, mayb im sensitive, but wad can i say... if only i can pass all my modules in one attempt, i would never feel so inferior, even tried to malign ppl around for looking down on me! im the one who's not up to the standard, who am i to judge them? thats the reality in life man... so yixian, since there's nothing u can do to change the fact that u're starting sch tml, work hard in these 7 weeks and get a good grade for macro! doesnt have to get an A though, i jus wanna graduate! im experiencing "so-near-yet-so-far" now... =(
alright, im tinking, instead of grumbling on how dreadful it is to know that tml is sch, i guess i shld be grateful that sch's finally starting tml? cos the retaking of macro have been haunting after my mind everyday since the moment i get to know my result... now that things are finally gonna get going, it'll be easier for me to decide which decision to make and which steps to take as i move along perhaps... oh man.. pls tell me that life's gonna be easier for me when sch starts tml??! life's been a total mess lately, im really lost! hais...
anyway, i really need to stay positive even though im still a little afriad inside... it'll be hard for me to stop worrying though... cos im always worrying for everything and for no reason... its bad, i know... thats y im trying to change now... if ppl say having a positive mind will help in changing our life into a better one, maybe i can do that too... well, i try~
arugh, im hoping for the best tml! =\

A Sunny day is a Happy day.

there's something i wanted to blog abt in mind for a long time... but today's weather is too good, and it'll be so wasted for me to skip it, so i've decided to leave the stuff that i've always wanted to blog for some other day.... wahahaha...

woke up at 7.30am this morning by 2 thunderous alarm ringing beside me.
wad a pleasant surprise, i tot i wun be able to wake up this early for jogging as i couldnt sleep last night till abt 5am. woo~ i got up from the bed wif a smile and hurrily get to the kitchen to brush my teeth and wash up my face.... look out from the kitchen window and there comes the sunny weather! the little park situated in front of my blk looked so alive! love the way sun shines onto the piece of greenery. its golden! beautiful. woohoo~ =) turned on the radio and tuned in to class95 while preparing for my breakfast.

Lovely sunny weather + nutella bread & scrambled egg + jason mraz's music = GOOD DAY!

hais, wads more to ask for for a delightful morning like this? seriously, i tink the sun makes a good start for the day... it brightens up a emo person like me easily just like that! ISNT THAT MAGICAL??? HAHA. sounds stupid to know a person like me can actually say that. but, i like! =D well, headed down to the park for a run wif sis,aka yy... love the smell of the breeze, nice~ though its kind of embarrassing to know that we have only run for 4 rounds around the park, and we were panting like hell. haha.. like the warm down exercise today though. enjoy gossiping and making fun of ourselves and the aunties around wif sis. heehee.
went to jp for lunch wif yy in the afternoon. we wanted to take nice healthy meal in banquet but dunno y ended up wif long john silvers combo meal instead leh. how healthy we are wif our diet plan! LOL! all the fats we had burnt in the morning have come back le. -.-

ive been feeling pretty down and confused lately after the release of result on last fri... i dun feel like doin anything now. but i know i cant. and i hate it. i know i need to do something other than working hard for macro.. wad is it? wad else shld i do? i wanna work, but i feel like im trapped. 很辛苦！
i feel pretty good today thou, i guess the good weather this morning played an impt role.
太阳公公，谢谢你。=)
lets hope for a better tml! can i have the same sun for tml too, pls?
and hope i can get up early! =D

Im a worrier.

received a false alarm from lujun this afternoon...
nearly freak out when she msg me and say result will be out today.
was feeling so lost after that msg cos i wasn't fully mentally prepared for it...
den kelly msged me at 5 plus saying portal says result's gonna come out tml, not today...
PHEW... ok, i know today or tml is not goin to make any difference to my grades but still... haiz...
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im born to be a worrier i guess...
i know whats done cannot be undone, i still couldnt help but to feel nervous and worried cos its been so long afterall... i've been worrying about getting through to the next sem after every exam in every semester... now that im already in sem 5, there's no further semester for me to worry about the promotion, i worry about graduating... the thought of not being able to get the cert even after coming so far to sem 5 is really scary... what happens if i fail all? the fees for retaking the modules will be so huge... alright, results are not even out yet and here i am cursing myself already... how great, haha.
few days ago i recalled the answers that i've written for my law paper, i realised that i actually could have given a better answer and explaination! oh dear...... =( mirco is killing me too, not that the paper is that tough, but wif such a great lecturer, failing his moudule again will be really disappointing and so much wasted... for macro, i didnt know it can be pretty interesting until the last few lecture and during the revision... i know wif more effort i can do better, well... ISB is really unexpected, i really cant gauge how well or bad i can score cos the tips given are not that accurate as expected... im hoping for the marker to be generous and kind to us... i jus need to pass, thats all...
this is so bad... how am i supposed to spend my whole day tml without worrying about the result? i know, im not goin to stop worrying till the result is out tml... but, this is torturing... i feel no good at all... =(

Long entry. Im Blessed. Thank You all.

9th sept 2009
lia and gang held a belated birthday celebration for me and her POP celebration ytd nite.
happened to reach vivo earlier than the expected time.
lia told me to meet her friend 1st but i chose to linger around the photo gallery nearby the toilet instead for the fear of awkwardness. Lol..
few mins past, everyone, except for szewei and huizhen, was finally there and ready to go.
we head down to brotzeit german bier bar restaurant for dinner.
the ambience over there was nice.
we sat, and lia's buddy place the order.
4 dishes was served.
i certainly have no idea what the dishes were called as all the names of the dishes are in german. However, their food was fab i must say.
brotzeit's famous pig's knuckle is really huge, and most impressive discovery is, i never thought pork could taste this way. haha..
i like the sausages, the fries, the mustard, the bread thingy but no, not the beer.
i tot the beer in this restaurant is gonna taste totally different from my daddy's kind of beer. i tot it's gonna taste special... maybe taste like some sort of sweet drinks or something.
but i tink i was tinking too much. haha... like no difference at all leh. =P
it's such a pity cos raymond says their beer goes well with the pig knuckle.
well, i just couldnt accept the taste, cant finish it, too bad lor. haha...
everybody was chatting while i was busying enjoying the meal and listening to their stories and jokes. i tink they tot i was feeling bored, but no worries, i wasnt. in fact, i really had fun listening. =)
asked lia when will szewei be coming cos i rmbed sw called and told me that she'll be late, but i realised she's been pretty late already.
szewei finally reached when the dinner was abt to end.
she brought me present. =)
its a bag from lia , szewei and huizhen! thank you so much girls... really. =)
lia was asking me if i want to order some desserts cos raymond is ordering his.
i told her no, i was really full.
ok, the next moment when i lift up my head or something, i saw the waiter holding onto the cake in front of me. then i hear friends singing birthday song for me.
oh, lia and weng hua say they have actually prepared the cake b4 we met.
thank you weng hua. thank you lia. =)
i feel really.... erm, i cant describe the feeling. its a mixture of joy, happiness, love, touched, appreciative, gratefulness... maybe it sounds a bit exaggerating, but u have no idea how does it feels like to receive such a pleasant little surprise from friends who means so so much to you especially at times when you were feeling really down and really hopeless.
i can look really emotionless sometimes when im feeling happy, sad or angry. maybe i looked calm last nite, but i was having goosebumps on my back when i receive the surprise. the joy i was experiencing inside me is definitely 10 times better than the way i reacted last nite. HAHAHA...
even though its kinda embarrassing to have other ppl staring at you, i appreciate that.. hee..

NEXT STOP: Yellow Jello retro bar.
my 1st time stepping into a bar...
tried their drink, called yellow zlingy i tink.
nice taste.
listened to their band.
nice music.
learnt a new game.
患难见真情。Cecilia Lee Zhao Xuan, i lub uuu! =D
went to the toilet.
nice smell.
too many ppl i dunno, luckily i have szewei. =)

went home wif sw cos find it too late for double o.. we bidded goodbye wif wenghua, head off to the station... sw's bf waited for us at outram. this funny couple helped to end my day wif laughter, thank you sw and yq! =)

this entry is long simply cos i want to rmb every single bit of this lovely day. since ive already mentioned so many thank you in this entry le, might as well say more. ok, thank you lia, thank you weng hua, thank you huizhen, thank you szewei, thank you raymond, thank you.... sylvester? whatever it is, jus wanna thank those who have wished me happy birthday! xie xie!
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went to catch The Time Traveller's Wife today wif liyi... i can understand why some ppl dun like this movie. but still, i personally tink that this movie is worth watching. love the kind of love they hold. im touched. =)

Sunshine after Rain.

i tink i know the reason.
the problem is kinda solved. im relieved. =D
perharps its me, i really need to learn how to talk things out.
that caught me by surprise, im kinda impressed.
im hoping for the best.

thank you all for the birthday wishes.
thank you for remembering my birthday, im really touched.
God bless.
and here i am,
Happy again. =)