omg, its 31st December 2009 today!!! last day of 2009!!! 2010 coming in less than an hours time!!
so many things happening in these 2 weeks!!! met up wif geok ting a few times recently... we went aston for dinner and some fun chit-chatting session few weeks ago... thanks for her recommendation, the food and price over there is simply SUPERB! lol... shall go there again and again and again.... hohoho... den met up wif her again last night to town and she bought a fred perry shirt for her lao shu... how sweet!!! =) learnt lots of stuff i dint get to learn in sch frm her... lol... stepping into the working society sounds like an adventurous trip... exciting yet dangerous... need to be careful when i found a job! =\
and oh, i had a really fun boxing day this year too! spent the whole day wif lia,wenghua, huizhen and hongu... lia rented a QQ and picked everyone of us up at our place! =D
we went to tiong bahru plaza to have delicious steaming hot steamboat at Rajah Inn... food was as yummy as the last time we went! really hope i can have a bigger appetite... haha... all of us... or rather, hongu, was talking non-stop during the steamboat session... more like a gossiping session.. lol... but it was really fun listening to hong u talk... cos he is vicious enuff wif his words! HAHA... the oily but yummy steamboat was wrapped up wif a generous portion of chocolate fondue.... lovely~ =) den after realising that we have some time to spare before the ktv session at 7, we head down to the arcade to have some fun... after the fun, we head down to chinatown 10 dollars club for k finally!!! =D
we exchange xmas presents in the room and i got a watch frm wenghua! hongu got mine! had a really good laugh during the 3 hrs of ktv session... hongu wif his goddness, celine dion's songs... LOL... it was so hard to sing and so long! the way he put his lungs and soul into the songs he sings is so ridiculously hilarious! nt that we've not listen to his singing b4, but it really sound different when he sings in a k room... haha... the collaboration between hongu and huizhen was the classic for the whole k session... damn entertaining. but for one moment i tot im goin deaf. the ability of choir~ hahaha...
so, after the k session, lia sent us back home... took loads of photos at the back seat wif hongu and huizhen, it really helped to kill time! =D den, when lia send me home, hongu, lia, wenghua and i took several pics again at the carpark below my hse... now i realised i dun have any group photos of us! its all wif wenghua and hongu! GREAT.
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Took some blurry photos of lia when she drove thou....
Home sweet home.... =)
28th Dec 2009, a special day for me~
went to escape theme park for the first time wif M...
finally get a chance to see and experience wads it is like over there...
told hongu that i'll be goin to escape the day b4... he strongly recommend me to take the pirate ride and the other ride wif big splash of water... was pretty eager to try that initially till i saw the actual ride....
pui, that was scary... told myself i would never go try the one wif water... it was way too high!
den i wonder around the pirate ride for a few times... keep askin myself if i can really do that... but in the end... i didnt... =(
i tried the rollar coaster, superman, ferris wheel, bump boat and go-kart though! it was fun! enjoyed them pretty much! if only the ferris wheel is bigger, it wld definitely be more enjoyable!
Go-kart is really exciting! i drove it twice! i wanna try that again next time! =D
we stayed there till 8pm, their closing time....
Pirate ride, im gonna conqeur u the next time i come! =)
And.... it's CHRISTMAS EVE TODAY!!! The weather is cold... Its drizzling outside right now early in the morning... breakfast is taken and im now watching Sesame Street while blogging... decided not to attend for the steamboat session in the end... i need to keep in mind with the situation that im currently having now... control yixian! control! its gonna be a different experience for me on christmas eve and christmas day this year... i'll be spending these 2 days at home... lazing around... finding jobs... saving money... yawns... LOL! ok la, its been a very long time since i spend both my christmas eve and christmas day at home... i've been busying involved myself with either work or with celebrations with friends on christmas eve and day for the past 3,4 years... kinda miss those times when i was still a little kid... i just spend these 2 days at home with my sisters, watch tv for the whole day... and that was enuff.... =) i still need to get wrapping paper for gift exchange!!! sian... omg, i saw a cake talking to elmo... and elmo's papa mama! so funny!haha...
arugh, wanted to run today! so nan de for me to wake up early at this time leh!!! but the weather doesnt allow me to!!! saded... hopefully i'll be able to run tml! ********************************************************************************** by the way, i got a B for my macro!!! YEAH!!! i've graduated... FINALLY!!! =D received lots of msges from friends who are concerned wif my result at 5pm that day, that was so scary~ i felt so so so nervous when i logged in my student portal to check out my result that day, fearing to know that ive failed again... total nightmare seriously... but thankfully no! =D really thankful to all the friends who've msged me... thank you all for your concerns! =) this sem is definitely better for me and all my friends who are retaking their modules too, everyone of us have cleared wad we have to clear! happiness is everywhere~ heehee....
the next step is.... to find a job! feel so vexed abt it lately... told myself that the decision i make must be careful... it's not the kind of job that i'll be sticking with for just 1 or 6 months.... its gonna be a serious job! a job that can let me share a bit of my parents burden and feed myself... this is crazy lor... u just feel so eager to lead a better life, get a job, get a pay.... but u are so unsure and unsecure abt everything! hais, i guess i shldnt tink too much abt this but simply just go for it... perhaps things will go better this way... too much worries and hesitation sometimes just complicate things... however, i really must say, the feeling of unsecurity and uncertainty just absurdly come out from no where... ytd, i was feeling really difficult... i almost couldnt breathe.... jiu ming ah~~~ T.T hais, suan le, just pray that i'll get a good job wif friendly people around real soon! =)
to one of my dear friend: hope u are feeling better now, its always terrible to know that u have to retake a module again, but u'll get over it very soon... cos after feeling so rotten, u'll get motivated to push yourself better... 7 weeks is really fast... if i can do it, u can too... all the best to u gal!
k la, kidding... =( After leaving Cookies & Monkey for 1 year plus, its been ages since i get a chance to touch toddlers and babies!!! I was sooo excited this afternoon when hongu said he could bring his niece out for awhile b4 we get to jp! i walked to the meeting place wif an eager anticipation, and finally get the chance to see shermie!!! baby shermie is not only adorable, she's friendly and smells really nice too!! she's so charismatic that i fell in love wif this chubby little shermie at the very first sight lor! her eyes are just so innocent and blur, makes me wanna sayang her so much~ hmmmm~ her arms, her legs, her face.... all so round and fair!!! no words can describe my feelings at that moment, i just go 'wah! wah! wah!' the temptation of squeezing her tight in my arms when i carry her, is as much as the fear i have for her to cry in pain..... BUT SHE'S SERIOUSLY SUPER OBEDIENT AND SWEET!!!! i wanna pester hongu to bring his niece out again next time..... wait for zeh zeh baby! =) wahahahaha.....
********************************************************************************** results will be out tml!!! im having mixed feelings right now... can't say that im extremely nervous about the release of the result at this point....yet. guess that i just dun wish to face the fact that the day is getting closer... i really cant predict on how well or how badly i've done for my paper... like wad i've mentioned before, the macro paper was definitely tougher than the previous intake paper.... however, there was a few qns that i have revised and came out... im just really afraid that there'll be any stupid careless mistakes from me again... gosh, i always get unsure of myself again whenever the date of release of result drew near.... i'll ask myself qns like 'did i tried my best for all the papers during exam?' or ' am i ever gonna make it?'... etc. that makes me a weak person i know.... but one thing for sure is, i'll make sure i'll leave dms wif a diploma cert... i really want to stop this kind of life that im having right now... i need to move on.... tml's gonna be a tough day before the result is release... im worried. =( im hoping for the best...
WOOHOO~~~!!! i've finally made my oreo cheesecake for the very 1st time!!! =) been wanting to make one for a very long time, but studies always give me a reason to put this mission aside... now that im having holiday, I have the time to do it at last!! =D
went to supermarket to get the ingredients needed in the early afternoon... den walked home wif excitement cos i cant wait to do my masterpiece.... the whole process was really fun! i enjoyed working on my oreo cheesecake all by myself! =) the beating of the mixture was a really tedious job cos i have to beat it manually... because i dun have an electric mixer! =( however, it gives me a greater sense of sastifaction as i get to see the mixture slowly formed... pretty~ =D
HOWEVER! the pan i used to hold my cheesecake is a bit too big.... so my oreo-based crust was not as complete as i wanted them to be. =( well, at least it is good enuff to hold the fillings~ there can always be another try next time. so, never be discouraged xian! filling was obviously way too much to fit my base crust.... but i cant dump the remaining fillings too, that'll be so wasted. so i ended up pouring all of it on top of the crust.... but it still looks nice! =D
was really excited during the whole 5 hours of waiting for the oreo cheesecake to settle in the refrigerator... brought my cheesecake out of the fridge at around 1030pm... the appearance is nice but i got so anxious abt the taste of my cake that i slice it in before taking any photos of it! arugh~~~ hais, i'll take picture for the rest of the cake tml then... mama, xiao mei and i tried the cake... but mama cant appreciate the taste of cheesecake.. aiya, wasted... haha... xiaomei said it was acceptable though... i find it ok too~ though not as nice as the one i've last tried from ida, my ex-colleague, my oreo cheesecake is passable la~ problem lies with the proportion i guess, too much fillings, made the taste too cheesy... the fillings overflow when i sliced the cake into pieces lor~ =( and i was so thrill to see my 1st 'baby' at that moment, i thought it would taste really great... thus i got myself a big piece of cheesecake, and i nearly puke after finishing it... -.- really too~much~fillings~le~
i've learnt a really good lesson---- Proportion is the key, xian! my stomach still feels sick now... =( my 1st attempt wasnt perfect this time, great experience for me though~ and i definitely learnt my mistakes and have a better idea on the areas to improve for my cheesecake~ i'll make sure i improve on my oreo cheesecake on the next attempt! i'll get better! wahahaha... =D
IM OLD~~~~!!!!! seriously,im feeling like an old lady who have gone thru lots... not that ive really been thru a lot yet, obviously.... i mean, nothing can excite me as much as before now..... wad's happening to me again??? arugh.... could it be exams have jus ended thus im having this side effects??? or could it be its been a long time since i meet up wif my funny friends hence explains my moodiness?? shit, i got to stay out of this.... =(
anyway, yay to the end of my exams!!! =) thou its jus one paper that i need to take, i have to pass it in order to graduate... so the pressure is there... =( im pretty worried this time, paper is harder than the previous sem's one... those guys around were complaining on how difficult the paper was after we were released frm the exam hall... gosh, but i feel quite ok leh... not that i find the paper easy to cope wif, there are some qns that im really unsure of too... but im glad that some questions that i've revised and practised came out... ive put in effort and gave in all i have for that paper... not goin to get an A for macro for sure, but at least i din leave any blank for every qns... i TRIED... but then again, the rest is up to the marker... im worried abt my careless mistakes! i wish i dun have any! hope they will not be harsh on us! i pray.....
went out wif hongu few days ago... jus some normal meet up... so nothing much to talk abt... but im looking forward to carry the baby next time we meet up! *jumps around* =D
had a fun outing on friday nite! went to PS to have dinner... these guys can really eat like a vaacum cleaner... we finish our meal in less than 1 hr time... impressive. den we walked to the new shopping mall in orchard... 313! din know the mall is open till the guys say they wanna go... so we went... and the mall is having a 3 storeys FOREVER 21 over there!!! this is so exciting! i wanna go!!!! =) not that im goin to really shop in there though, its just so cool to have a 3 level F21 in sg... cos ive never been to one as big as this! wahahaha... probably get back there soon...
have to wait patiently till the results are out... i really cant help but to hope for the day to come faster... no, im not excited abt my grades definitely, i jus wanna know the outcome, am i able to graduate or not? if yes i'll start hunting for jobs, if no i'll faint and go back sch again crying but still studying... and of cos i wish for the former one... I WANT TO BE FREE! ROOAAAR!!!
till then, there's a few meet ups coming up wif friends... gonna try to enjoy as much as i can~ dear friends, here i come!
feeling blue of all sudden... sometimes i really wonder if i have contracted acute depression... lol... really stressed right now... i need to find a way to vent out my frustration and unhappiness... i dunno wad is the reason that causes me to feel so down tonight, and that irritates me even further... hais... =(
i am and can be more timid and holds low self-esteem than anyone can imagine... sometimes i dun talk things out doesnt mean i dun care... if you see me laughing over certain issues, it doesnt mean that im trying to avoid something or not taking it seriously... if i din rebuke back doesnt mean im fine or ok wif your decision or opinion... im simply just afraid to show ppl on how i feel at times...
i do a lot of self-questioning and reflections in my mind every single day... i think and plan stuff in my pea brain every single moment... there will be times i feel so disheartened and feel so difficult that i couldnt even breathe... i just felt that everything is so not going to get better cos i cant even see where im standing now...
i used to feel comfortable wif myself way better than now... wad is happening to me? im no longer be able to laugh wif all my lungs out like i used to... growing up is a tedious process.. i know i have to face it bravely and move on... too much thoughts and troubles have been entering into me life...
i dun like to talk things out oftenly, even though sometimes i may sound like i have told ya enough abt me, there still is, so much more in me that some of you wouldnt even know yet... not that im trying to hide anything from ppl around, but i just have too much stuff to say out... so much that i cant even organise my thoughts accordingly... im a person wif lots of O.S in my mind... but definitely not a hypocrite.... i just tend to show my true self a little slower....
there'll be times when i have so much ideas and plans in mind and dying to hope ppl will hear me out, but im just afraid that ppl will get hurt and either judge or misunderstood me for who i am base on my opinion that is untrue... thus, i step back. i keep to myself in a wrg way. i hold on for the wrg reason. i follow the crowd to think that it'll be a easy way out... however, i ended up as a person wif no opinion... oh yea i do, but only i myself knows it... cos i told nobody.
but one thing that stays me happy for sure is when everyone is please wif the decision made, i'll be happy for all and everything too... having mutual understanding and cooperation when interacting wif anyone is all i ask for... i dislike chaos.
its really terrible when so much worries and troubles are inside your mind and someone is there to remind you every single time... and worst is, aha, those comments does no constructive help at all?!! like seriously.... wth?? but well, sometimes its hard to blame them, we tend to take things for granted especially when it's wif us for a long time that we forgot to appreciate what they have done and sacrifice for us... take our loved ones for example... be it family or friends... we just forgot how much difference they have made in our life and that if not for their presence we could not have been who we are now... shameless to say, very few ppl will keep that in mind... so we tend to throw our displeasures, anger, tough remarks... all on them with no mercy~ cos they are the ones who will accept you for who you are, and hold you grudges no longer than anyone else... we often failed to realise that they actually dun have to take your shit or hear your nasty/non-constructive comments just because ' i experienced a bad day from work today, so mom, i have the right to feel angry.' or ' we have known each other for so long, you shld have know my temper and character, so its ok for me to be straight forward and talk nasty to you. cos true friends shld understand me better than anyone else.' thats the lamest excuse. and they do nothing wrong to u. very sad.
there will be times when we need someone to be there for us when we are down, happy, lost, confused, angry.... the close ones are the ones for us... its always comforting to know that someone is there for you and be with you to pull you through ur darkest moment... however, there'll be times when you'll forget what your loved ones have done for you after they have helped to pull you out from ur difficult times... so you tend to stomp them flat when u are upset or feel that 'i do this to you becos i care'.... we hurt them unknowingly... some may even not argue back cos they understand our intention despite feeling disappointed with us...
these are some of the things i've been reminding myself every single day... that all these great and amazing ppl who really care and love you dun come easily... that we shld treasure what we have now, and appreciate their presence.... that we shld always put ourselves in their shoes... and treat them better as we can... we shldnt be stingy wif our words, and shld try to give them the recognition and appreciation they deserve... so even when sometimes they really does 'stupid' stuff that gets on ur nerves, we shld always remind the good stuff they have done for us and tell them how much they means to us and how much you love them... may not be easy, but i try my best to place myself in their position to feel what they feel...
just like any typical traditional chinese, i admit that i am not good wif showing affection to my parents on how much i love them and how much i appreciate their effort into building this small little comfort family for me... they may not be rich enuff to buy me wad i want since young, but im really thankful to have such a resposnsible and caring parents who will try their best to provide us wif the best living condition they can give... we may not have fanciful clothes to wear or expensive new toys to play or extra pocket money to spend as compared to other kids since young, at least we own a loving and happy childhood! =)
i din realise how blessed i was till when some of my friends told me how envy they felt when they see my family... i dint really get them at that time.... i was really young then... but i can totally understand them now... =) i really hope to pass my macro paper and graduate now... i'll go find a job after that..... i'll bring my parents to chinese restaurants to taste real good chinese food.... i'll get them a nice hp.... i'll buy them tickets to go for tour.... i need to work hard in order to accomplish all these.... these are my way of showing my gratitude to mama and papa.... so yixian, jiayou!
and of course, i feel really lucky to have a bunch of good friends who have been sticking through thick and thin wif me for so many years since secondary sch... its my honour to know them and im glad to be able to grow up wif them~ also, the friendship whom ive build in SIM really surprised me... i never thought i can make such a wonderful bunch of friends in this sch... they make things work! without them, my life in SIM will be hell... they are such a kind soul...
i love my friends... i really do... sometimes i thought i have lost them, but actually i havent... therefore, i really treasure every moment spent wif them... they gave me the encouragement whenever i need... offer me help when they see me struggling and worrying if i can cope myself without me even asking! i owe them too much...
hongu and lia, you both have given me so so much joy and laughter during this 8 yrs of friendship... i really enjoy the times spent wif u guys... you guys never fail to lessen my worries and burden... encouragements are always given to me unselfishly... help were given in times of needs... these are the friends who really feel happy for you from the bottom of their heart even if u scored C6 for ur o lvl math... lol... they never discourage me and give me sacarsm in a wrg way! they will suan me at the right area which always cracks me up so much! hope our friendship never stops... i pray hard... kelly, dillon and jasper too, i never expect someone who know you for barely one year to treat you so well... these friends that ive made in sch are really kind, sweet and funny... especially kelly, i never tot a gal can be like her.... a gal so skinny and small in size, yet own such an incredible big heart and a loud voice inside... lol... days when i need to work full-time and study full-time was a total nightmare... i wouldnt be in sem5 without kelly's help... she is too good to be true... that guy who owns her now really jian dao bao~ i hope she's coping well wif her heavy workload too... dillon is the most talented friend ive known so far... he knows basically everything... mayb cos too rich so can afford to own lots of hobbies... LOL.... this cool guy is another great friend who is really amicable and easy-going despite of what he have... he could have act cool and despise ppl like me who is poor, short, fat, not good in studies...etc, but he dint. lol, so he is a good boy! hope he is coping well in the ns now... another good boy, jasper... honestly i dun spend as much time wif him as compared to the rest, due to some chances we missed, but he did gave me encouragement from time to time when we chatted on msn too... and a very easy-going guy who says sui bian to everything too... he's entering ns soon, hope he is prepared for what is waiting for him in there! these 3 wonderful friends that ive made in sch gave me really good memories, i shall never forget those times we've spent tgt in sch.... sometimes i really miss them... hope we can meet up soon~
there are really lots of good friends i want to thank such as judy, geokting, szewei, lujun...etc and friends like caryn, who is so sweet enuff to leave me a comment to encourage me for my previous entry! she rmbs me! but im tired already, and i feel much better talking things out this way even thou its a bit long and irrelavent wif why im suddenly depressed... aiya, i dunno my reason for feeling upset anyway, so i guess ranting out on how i feel helps to lighten my mood! so yea, thats all for now... im gonna get some sleep and revise again tml!
That was Lia's super advance birthday celebration.
We spent the whole day together.
It was fun. =)
Woke up a little late in that morning to prepare the food for picnic...
Hongu was right, yea, i TRIED to make crepe, but i miscalculate the proportion of the ingredient... so, poor hongu was there to swallow all my failed workpieces! LOL!
We were really afraid of the unpredictable weather in this season, but thankfully, everything turns out fine~ Sun was blazing hot! lol...
We ate. We drank. We chatted. We joked.
That was a good day we shared, it became more meaningful when its lia's birthday...
Got pretty tired after the meal, my mood might have gone higher if not for the tiredness accumulated from the preparation of food since tat morning! IM OLD ALREADY! hais...
I still enjoy the celebration though! =D
The birthday celebration was a 'really simple' one as both of us are really capable of holding cheap celebrations... lol, ok la, but cheap celebrations wif them always brings back memories as we used to do cheapskate activities during secondary sch days too... we still do though... almost becoming a tradition... HAHA..
okok, 21st birthday for our friends next year will be a much better one... for now, we hope that lia can still enjoy it... but her birthday present is still wif me~ =\ hope to pass to her the next time we meet ba...
I want to do something, but i jus felt that i need to get over this hurdle first before i can do the things i want and need to do. I am losing control.
I saw this cute old lady who looked 80% like Edna Mode from The Incredibles in the same bus with me while im on my way to school this afternoon! Though not as fashionable as Edna, she have the same hairstyle and wears a black specs too!
the cutest thing is when her specs begins sliding down almost to the tip of her nose when she was finding herself a seat! aww...
she should be in her 60s already, but still strong enough to chase after the bus! 佩服! She's.... just so adorable!!! =)
Another incident happened when i was on my way walking back home from the busstop this evening...
this cute little boy was about to hand the few coins with his tiny little hand to the auntie selling ice-cream along the street... the next moment i felt something bypassing me with a speed of a lighting... its the ice-cream boy... =)
i saw an orange plastic bag hanging over the right handle of his bike...
he must be worrying about his melting ice-cream and wants to get home asap so as to enjoy a solid ice-cream, thus explains the bursting speed.... Lol...
been feeling pretty shag lately... i dunno y, but probably partly due to my 'auntie-visit'.... hais...
anyway, i had a wonderful saturday last week... me and hong u held a picnic for lia's advanced birthday celebration... we had fun... hopefully lia enjoyed it too... gonna talk more abt it next time, im in sleepy mode now... ciaos~
woke up accidentally this morning (technically, shld be ytd morning) at freaking 6:45am!! tried to get back to sleep but ah man's alarm clock started to ring... i couldn't sleep at all!!! =( actual plan was to wake up at 7:30am and go for run, but was too tired after waking up so early in the morning, so din run in the end... hais... there was no sun in the morning!! wad a waste! arugh... anyway, met up wif lujun at jp in the noon time and pass her past semester's exam qns and answers... finally managed to get my shoes! the old shoes im currently wearing now is in a serious terrible stage, the shoe base is almost worn off totally... =\ spent money again.. well, at least i have a lower risk of getting tripped or having shoes to break into half while im walking wif it... old shoes, u're so comfortable to wear and have brought me to so many places~ i'll miss you!
went home at around 2 plus after some window-shopping wif lujun... hmm, weather was kinda warm when i walk home, still enjoy the journey back home wif the company of the sun and my mp3 though... i've been fallin in love wif sunny weather recently, it's funny, i dunno... seems like the older i get the more i tend to appreciate the presence of the sun?? or maybe its bcos of the song in my mp3 that makes me feel good wif the sunny weather? haha.. been listening to farewell my summerlove by mj for quite sometime already... but still... the more i listen, the more i love it! i can keep on replaying the track in my mp3 throughout my entire journey for like 1 whole hr, everyday! it is that awesome! at least, for me! really happy! =)
had salad for lunch at home, only managed to finish 1/4 of it... man, the portion was huge! i hate baby carrots, eww~ gonna take a run tml morning wif sis! im feeling really sleepy now, hope im able to wake up early for the run... AND A BRIGHT ROUND GOLDEN SUN FOR ME PLEASE! i'll be grateful! =)
HAIZ... sch's starting tml!!! and my lesson starts tml too!!! oh no, really dun feel ready yet. i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, but this holiday seems to be passing way too fast for me to settle down and prepare for sch... not that i've not fail any module b4.. well, i mean, this time round is really different, i was supposed to have graduated from SIM ALREADY. unlike the past few semesters, i can still consider myself lucky to be promoted to the next semester despite failing one module. but this time, i failed macro and it stops me from graduating! arugh, yixian, can u be smarter or even work harder? is this wad u want? look at wad have u done to bring urself into this shit? this class that im gonna be studying wif seems rather cold towards repeat students based on my past few experience... perhaps they jus feel that there's no need to be friendly wif us since they already have their own clique in the class... well, im just worried abt having problems wif grouping for macro assignment.. cos till now, i still hav no idea whose repeating macro wif me! emily failed law, not macro! how i wish we can retake the same module together... its really scary to be in a place where u dunno any single person! i really dun feel good, but wad else can i do? im the one who causes this disaster, i cant blame anyone but myself... =( i jus hope that everything can go smoothly... really hoping to have no trouble in finding a suitable group for macro and see familiar faces and grp wif them! issit too much to ask for? hmm.. till then i can find a parttime job and start earning money... im feeling empty as i see my bank acct drop... gosh, when will i be able to lead a better life? i miss those days when i can use my ability to earn my own allowance, working hard everyday w/o knowing that pay day is coming soon and have no plans on where and wad to spend yet.... hongu mentioned all these to me few days ago, i have exactly the same thought as him! its good to feel useful, but im feeling like a trash now... -.- this is really bad... =( sometimes, i do feel that some ppl is looking down on me, mayb im sensitive, but wad can i say... if only i can pass all my modules in one attempt, i would never feel so inferior, even tried to malign ppl around for looking down on me! im the one who's not up to the standard, who am i to judge them? thats the reality in life man... so yixian, since there's nothing u can do to change the fact that u're starting sch tml, work hard in these 7 weeks and get a good grade for macro! doesnt have to get an A though, i jus wanna graduate! im experiencing "so-near-yet-so-far" now... =( alright, im tinking, instead of grumbling on how dreadful it is to know that tml is sch, i guess i shld be grateful that sch's finally starting tml? cos the retaking of macro have been haunting after my mind everyday since the moment i get to know my result... now that things are finally gonna get going, it'll be easier for me to decide which decision to make and which steps to take as i move along perhaps... oh man.. pls tell me that life's gonna be easier for me when sch starts tml??! life's been a total mess lately, im really lost! hais... anyway, i really need to stay positive even though im still a little afriad inside... it'll be hard for me to stop worrying though... cos im always worrying for everything and for no reason... its bad, i know... thats y im trying to change now... if ppl say having a positive mind will help in changing our life into a better one, maybe i can do that too... well, i try~ arugh, im hoping for the best tml! =\
there's something i wanted to blog abt in mind for a long time... but today's weather is too good, and it'll be so wasted for me to skip it, so i've decided to leave the stuff that i've always wanted to blog for some other day.... wahahaha...
woke up at 7.30am this morning by 2 thunderous alarm ringing beside me. wad a pleasant surprise, i tot i wun be able to wake up this early for jogging as i couldnt sleep last night till abt 5am. woo~ i got up from the bed wif a smile and hurrily get to the kitchen to brush my teeth and wash up my face.... look out from the kitchen window and there comes the sunny weather! the little park situated in front of my blk looked so alive! love the way sun shines onto the piece of greenery. its golden! beautiful. woohoo~ =) turned on the radio and tuned in to class95 while preparing for my breakfast.
Lovely sunny weather + nutella bread & scrambled egg + jason mraz's music = GOOD DAY!
hais, wads more to ask for for a delightful morning like this? seriously, i tink the sun makes a good start for the day... it brightens up a emo person like me easily just like that! ISNT THAT MAGICAL??? HAHA. sounds stupid to know a person like me can actually say that. but, i like! =D well, headed down to the park for a run wif sis,aka yy... love the smell of the breeze, nice~ though its kind of embarrassing to know that we have only run for 4 rounds around the park, and we were panting like hell. haha.. like the warm down exercise today though. enjoy gossiping and making fun of ourselves and the aunties around wif sis. heehee. went to jp for lunch wif yy in the afternoon. we wanted to take nice healthy meal in banquet but dunno y ended up wif long john silvers combo meal instead leh. how healthy we are wif our diet plan! LOL! all the fats we had burnt in the morning have come back le. -.-
ive been feeling pretty down and confused lately after the release of result on last fri... i dun feel like doin anything now. but i know i cant. and i hate it. i know i need to do something other than working hard for macro.. wad is it? wad else shld i do? i wanna work, but i feel like im trapped. 很辛苦！ i feel pretty good today thou, i guess the good weather this morning played an impt role. 太阳公公，谢谢你。=) lets hope for a better tml! can i have the same sun for tml too, pls? and hope i can get up early! =D
received a false alarm from lujun this afternoon... nearly freak out when she msg me and say result will be out today. was feeling so lost after that msg cos i wasn't fully mentally prepared for it... den kelly msged me at 5 plus saying portal says result's gonna come out tml, not today... PHEW... ok, i know today or tml is not goin to make any difference to my grades but still... haiz... ********************************************************************************** im born to be a worrier i guess... i know whats done cannot be undone, i still couldnt help but to feel nervous and worried cos its been so long afterall... i've been worrying about getting through to the next sem after every exam in every semester... now that im already in sem 5, there's no further semester for me to worry about the promotion, i worry about graduating... the thought of not being able to get the cert even after coming so far to sem 5 is really scary... what happens if i fail all? the fees for retaking the modules will be so huge... alright, results are not even out yet and here i am cursing myself already... how great, haha. few days ago i recalled the answers that i've written for my law paper, i realised that i actually could have given a better answer and explaination! oh dear...... =( mirco is killing me too, not that the paper is that tough, but wif such a great lecturer, failing his moudule again will be really disappointing and so much wasted... for macro, i didnt know it can be pretty interesting until the last few lecture and during the revision... i know wif more effort i can do better, well... ISB is really unexpected, i really cant gauge how well or bad i can score cos the tips given are not that accurate as expected... im hoping for the marker to be generous and kind to us... i jus need to pass, thats all... this is so bad... how am i supposed to spend my whole day tml without worrying about the result? i know, im not goin to stop worrying till the result is out tml... but, this is torturing... i feel no good at all... =(
9th sept 2009 lia and gang held a belated birthday celebration for me and her POP celebration ytd nite. happened to reach vivo earlier than the expected time. lia told me to meet her friend 1st but i chose to linger around the photo gallery nearby the toilet instead for the fear of awkwardness. Lol.. few mins past, everyone, except for szewei and huizhen, was finally there and ready to go. we head down to brotzeit german bier bar restaurant for dinner. the ambience over there was nice. we sat, and lia's buddy place the order. 4 dishes was served. i certainly have no idea what the dishes were called as all the names of the dishes are in german. However, their food was fab i must say. brotzeit's famous pig's knuckle is really huge, and most impressive discovery is, i never thought pork could taste this way. haha.. i like the sausages, the fries, the mustard, the bread thingy but no, not the beer. i tot the beer in this restaurant is gonna taste totally different from my daddy's kind of beer. i tot it's gonna taste special... maybe taste like some sort of sweet drinks or something. but i tink i was tinking too much. haha... like no difference at all leh. =P it's such a pity cos raymond says their beer goes well with the pig knuckle. well, i just couldnt accept the taste, cant finish it, too bad lor. haha... everybody was chatting while i was busying enjoying the meal and listening to their stories and jokes. i tink they tot i was feeling bored, but no worries, i wasnt. in fact, i really had fun listening. =) asked lia when will szewei be coming cos i rmbed sw called and told me that she'll be late, but i realised she's been pretty late already. szewei finally reached when the dinner was abt to end. she brought me present. =) its a bag from lia , szewei and huizhen! thank you so much girls... really. =) lia was asking me if i want to order some desserts cos raymond is ordering his. i told her no, i was really full. ok, the next moment when i lift up my head or something, i saw the waiter holding onto the cake in front of me. then i hear friends singing birthday song for me. oh, lia and weng hua say they have actually prepared the cake b4 we met. thank you weng hua. thank you lia. =) i feel really.... erm, i cant describe the feeling. its a mixture of joy, happiness, love, touched, appreciative, gratefulness... maybe it sounds a bit exaggerating, but u have no idea how does it feels like to receive such a pleasant little surprise from friends who means so so much to you especially at times when you were feeling really down and really hopeless. i can look really emotionless sometimes when im feeling happy, sad or angry. maybe i looked calm last nite, but i was having goosebumps on my back when i receive the surprise. the joy i was experiencing inside me is definitely 10 times better than the way i reacted last nite. HAHAHA... even though its kinda embarrassing to have other ppl staring at you, i appreciate that.. hee..
NEXT STOP: Yellow Jello retro bar. my 1st time stepping into a bar... tried their drink, called yellow zlingy i tink. nice taste. listened to their band. nice music. learnt a new game. 患难见真情。Cecilia Lee Zhao Xuan, i lub uuu! =D went to the toilet. nice smell. too many ppl i dunno, luckily i have szewei. =)
went home wif sw cos find it too late for double o.. we bidded goodbye wif wenghua, head off to the station... sw's bf waited for us at outram. this funny couple helped to end my day wif laughter, thank you sw and yq! =)
this entry is long simply cos i want to rmb every single bit of this lovely day. since ive already mentioned so many thank you in this entry le, might as well say more. ok, thank you lia, thank you weng hua, thank you huizhen, thank you szewei, thank you raymond, thank you.... sylvester? whatever it is, jus wanna thank those who have wished me happy birthday! xie xie! ********************************************************************************** went to catch The Time Traveller's Wife today wif liyi... i can understand why some ppl dun like this movie. but still, i personally tink that this movie is worth watching. love the kind of love they hold. im touched. =)
i tink i know the reason. the problem is kinda solved. im relieved. =D perharps its me, i really need to learn how to talk things out. that caught me by surprise, im kinda impressed. im hoping for the best.
thank you all for the birthday wishes. thank you for remembering my birthday, im really touched. God bless. and here i am, Happy again. =)
it's my birthday tml. im not happy at all.why? i have no idea.its terrible.
sometimes, saying sorry cant solve the problem, nor would it make you feel better... u will never learn, never. habit is. a scary thing. im not breathing. i need strength. u'll never understand.
我生病了！！！好辛苦呀~~~ =( i hate the cough syrup... yucks. friends around me were scaring me with the h1n1 thingy... was so worried when i visited the doctor ytd, but the doc never say anything leh, jus say i got a high fever... hope everything is fine~ thank you papa for accompanying me to see the doctor... =) stay up till 2am plus with joanna to wait for grp members to send us their part to compile for our law group assignment last night... that was torturing! i tot i was about to melt as i was running on a freaking high fever... im feeling drowsy now, gonna go sleep now... Get Well Soon, Xian!
its august now! omg, how come time passes so fast?! im dead. i dun understand macro, macro doesnt understand me too! law is so confusing! there's still so much things to be done! 3 assignments will be due on this coming week! oh man! oh man! oh man! how? how? how? there's spotcheck today for micro lesson, weili din come for lesson today! how? how? how? THIS IS KILLING ME!!!
ma and pa will be home by tml night, hope they had fun... hais~ hope that i can pull through this difficult time...
i dreamt a very funny dream last night. i was chased by a few lions and cheetahs on a highway... -.- rushing off assignments till 5am plus is really crazy. and there's more to come.. damn it! cant imagine any dream to be more scary than this recent one.
anyway, pretty girls cant really be trusted, i've learnt my lesson. a real hard one. ouch. well, maybe not all, but its safer to work wif 'normal' ppl... haha... 丑女万岁。。。=D
It's been 2 weeks since Michael Jackson is gone, his memorial service was held on this tuesday in LA...however, the news of his sudden death still remain shocking to me...
its totally unbelievable to hear that michael jackson is dead...
he is only 50 years old, gone too soon!
life is so unpredictable...
im not a huge fan of michael jackson, but still, i feel sad for him...
how can i not? he is a legend and a gifted talent, his entire life is just so amazing with lots of ups and downs... he has got the power, the ability to bring people from all around the world, regardless of different race and religion to come together as one through his music and dance moves.
it seems so hard to accomplish, but he did.
despite being so talented and famous, he is still pure and kind in his heart, helping so many children around the world, making the life of the needy children into a better one...
he is one of a kind.
its a great loss.
nobody can ever replace him.
perhaps what michael jackson's brother, jermaine said was right, "michael was a gift send by the god, but since the world doesnt cherish him, he is taking him away from us..."
but im still glad and considered lucky to be able to witness some of his achievements when he was still alive...
i still remember that i used to idolize michael jackson when i was a kid, he is the first western singer i got to know, still remember there was a time when i was sitting in front of the tv, watchin news about him when he came to singapore for a concert tour... i was really young then... if i was older at that time, i could have go catch his concert cos i know his live performance is definitely goin to be awesome and an unforgettable one...
well, there's no use saying all these now...
i hope michael jackson is doing well up in heaven, i hope he'll feel happier up there where only love and peace exists.. the love and care that he left for the children in the world, his family, his 3 kids,friends and the mother earth will stay forever...
all the good deeds, music and love that he shared with the world shall not be forgotten.
ended work at 8pm today... yeah~ managed to complete a little more work than past few days... wad time shall i go for work tml then?hmm... been doin nothing much since holiday started... oh ya,went out wif friends last fri,cos szewei jus gotten her driving license... the whole journey was pretty fun, thou i was a little worried for her initially when she tried to figure out how the car actually works... hahaha... its so funny to hear her swearing at those cars, shld hav film the whole journey down de, then can let her see how many times she had sweared in one night. lucky her,have bf beside her to guide her throughout the whole journey... wahahaha... and its really sweet of her to insist on driving everyone of us home that night despite of her green driving skills, "不要啦, 你的家那么多黑人, 酱危险, 我载你到最靠近你家的busstop k!" hahaha...sweet~ anyway, really feel happy and proud of her, szewei can drive! congrats gal! =)
im gonna treat dear kelly and dillon back someday...hopefully soon. =) i have really kind and sweet and thoughtful friends around me ya know... kelly, i hope u're enjoying urself over there~ *grins* ********************************************************************************* ya ya ya, results will be out tml... hais.. so fast... as usual, not confident again... but im gonna continue in SIM even if i were to do really badly for the paper this time round, cos its already halfway thru the course, finishing soon.. no more questions on to leave or to stay, my mind is set. yes, i'll be staying.staying to complete wad i've started.staying to show my gratitude to all my friends who have helped me so much in my school assignments since sem1 till now... i know myself very well on how much chances of passing i stand for this time round's exam. econs is really difficult for me, so much work to do, yet so little time... finance, there's so much to memorise! yea, i cant see myself passing for that paper too. otqm is really hard to say, accidents always happened. so im mentally prepared for the worst outcome le.. MA! i dunno... this time round's paper seems easy, im lucky enuff to hav a few qns which i've studied to come out in the paper... but i always tell myself, never say never. hais, im really pessimistic.im hopeless. perhaps i shld try to force myself to think positively. jus like wad geokting told me some time ago, 'so, remove those negative ions and start living!' its gonna be torturous tml! shall try not to count down to the time of the release of result tml. arugh, i hate this feeling.
and they say that everyone are born into this world with a purpose.. i guess my purpose of being in sem4 is not bcos im capable or deserve to be in this sem, im jus here to help my friends to tap cards and lend them notes to copy when they din attend for lectures... not bcos im sick of doin all these, im willing to and feel glad to be able to help as long as im able to, im jus having doubt in myself again... i got a feeling, that i wun be able to make it to next sem again... i see 24th batch waving their hands at me liao... die... yixian, can you be more negative? im really sick of you and ur weaknesses... u have so many good friends around you to help you with ur work all along, can you show some results?? there's so much to study... i wonder if i can do it... can i?
hold on, xian! remind urself how did u make it here? u shld know urself very well, dun give up... dun let everything gone to waste..
last piece of assignment handed in today was otqm... something cropped up this morning... heng still managed to hand in the assignment on time.. hope jenny will be fine! FINALLY... really tired, burnt lots of midnight oils in this sem for assignments... once again, received quite a number of help and guidence from friends around during the hectic assignment period... really grateful and appreciated! =) i have no idea y... i tink my brain is not functioning well nowadays... starting to doubt my capability in getting thru sem 4 and proceeding to sem 5... but its like, im halfway here already.. somemore its wif the help of so many friends that have let me come so far... money, time and effort will be so much wasted if i fail to attain what i have to achieve right now... hais... im feeling a bit restless... exams are coming too.. dear friends in sem 5 are goin to graduate soon.. its so ridiculous to see how fast the time flies... hais, will i be able to reach that level too?
there's one thing i hope u'll understand. that not every right or great things u have done have to be praised. i know u need lots of encouragements and support from others, esp from ur love ones. however, to be honest, i think ppl still have the right to do wad they think is appropriate. even if u think they arent doing the right stuff, and believe that wad u did and think is actually correct, that doesnt give u the reason to judge that they are not supportive of wad u're doin right now. we're not kids, always wishing for stickers, stamps, sweets and praises from teacher or daddy mummy whenever we do things correctly or achieve something commendable. yes i dun deny, by receiving all these treats as an encouragement feels great and does help in boosting ur self-confidence. but the thing is, we are all growing up le. face it, u could do a hundred of good deeds or wonderful pieces of work now and have only one or two ppl who can truly appreciate ur hardwork and effort. other ppl can have a nice loving daddy who can shower them wif care, concerns and love, while u can have a strict daddy who is fierce and always offering you wif canes and scoldings. y is that so? u may complain 'hey! thats not fair!' so? life is not, and never fair. jus as when u're complaining abt how discouraging u are when they din show any support or understand ur thinking and intentions, ask urself, how well do u think u understand them too? try to put urself in other ppl's shoes, pls try. upon reflecting on those stuff which u have done, its not hard not to let others to have doubts in ur capability in succeeding too. im not saying that i dun trust u, but i really think that there is no need to put up a big fuss wif ur family members over such things. they are ur family afterall, i believe they do not wish to see u suffer too. yea, i know they may sound a bit harsh or too much with their words, i know its disheartening and painful for u to see and hear them responding this way.. why not transfer your energy and time from complaining into doin something which you really wish to accomplish? like wad i've told u, perharps this is the challenge post to you by god, to see if u can overcome all these circumstances, to see if u can stay strong and prove to those ppl who think u cant that they are wrong, to make u a better son, a better brother, a better grandson, a better person and perharps, a better man in future? ur appetite is getting larger day by day, how far can u go? i know i wouldnt know unless i give u my support and listening ear even if it means to make myself a dull and boring person, i'll still giv it a try. i know u wun let go without even trying hard to get what u want. and i clearly understand, u're stubborn, and u wun give up. u want to prove to those who doesnt believe in u. i know, i know.. it's a good thing to have a goal in life and be ambitious. but i truely hope and pray that ur hunger for success will not devour ur true innocent personality completely. dun forget who give u brain to think? who give you limbs to move about freely? who's the one who hold ur hands when u 1st started learning to walk? who's the one who wipe ur tears when u cry? who's the one who hold ur hands to write ur 1st letter and ur name? who's the one who taught to you how to talk when u were urging to communicate to the world as a baby? who's the one who feed u well when u're hungry? i know u are disappointed, thus angry. i can see that u do are aware of the reason y ur family is behaving that way, therefore, u shld know what u need to do in order to change their views in u too. as u are working hard in pursuing ur dream, aspiring to become that somebody, i hope u'll be changing for the good. the main reason for me to support u in doin this is becos i know u want to make it big and prove to those who doubt u, and ultimately, this is something that makes u happy! dun go for success blindly and hurt ur love ones unnoticeablely. it might be too late for u to realised the precious things which you have lost when u finally make it. don't make me feel that i dunno u anymore...
Receieved a shocking msg when i jus board the bus this morning.. lia met a car accident on wed, she fell off frm her bike and was sent to tts hospital for operation and is discharged today.. my whole body frozen when i read the 1st sentence, so worried that wen hua is goin to tell me something bad has happened to lia.. luckily not. though she broke her ring finger but i guess its already considered a bless le, things could have gone worse with car accident. jus get to see her few weeks ago during the bbq session, din expect to hear from her again with this bad news. still remember the 1st time she gave me a ride on her phantom around my house estate, the feeling of getting on a bike is so strange lo.. jus a helmet on my head, nothing else to protect my whole body, felt so naked. but at the same time i was able to enjoy the breeze and the smell of excitment & thrill too, that experience was unexplainable. however, when comes to accidents, riding a bike becomes scary le... haiz, hope lia is resting comfortably at home now.. informed hongu immediately after the msg. i guess if nothing goes wrong we'll be visiting her tml.. haiz.. know her for so many years le, but only get to know her injury when she's discharged, damn guilty.. aiya, mei shi jiu hao... hope she'll recover fast. =) ********************************************************************************** slept at 5am today.. heng i managed to wake up at 8am n reach sch on time. if not 5 persons attendance will be mark as absent le.. haha... super stress lo~
I got 2 wisdom tooth! the pain is terrible when its acting up, esp the one on my left side. =( looking at the brighter side, its a good chance to slim down eh! =)
today's lesson: finance and MA.. been studying in school for the whole day... tired leh, but cant sleep, lots of thoughts running inside my mind.. =( finance lecturer is different from the previous sem.. and i learnt carrot vs stick from this finance lecturer today. how cool is that? -.- miss janice is teaching me MA!! i know she's good in teaching, but the rest really depends on me.. hais, stress luh!
its my 1st day of school in sem 4... 1st lesson was microeconomics... tink will get harder as we move on... hais... Projs are coming!!! =( jia you, xian! *********************************************************** gone to get myself a haircut after lesson today... piang, that guy cut my fringe till so short! even thou my forehead is high, there is no need to show everybody that de ma... -.- i tot i looked fine wif that short fringe when i wasnt wearing specs... i was wrong... in fact, i looked like an ah dai when i look at myself in the mirror after wearing specs lo... da mei was callin me ah dai when i reached home too.. =( bad hair day luh... aiya! dun care le la, i shld be worrying for my studies now le.. die~
Wah~~~~ went back to sch to collect my lecture notes n pay for my repeat module.. hais, 300 bucks fly le~ =( and after scanning thru all those notes for sem 4, im really scared n worried lor. so much work to do for assignments, all modules so difficult, still have MA to deal wif! i very scared i cannot cope leh!!! =( den still got suan-ed by lujun for my poor results! i so sad liao still add oil.. =( cant believe, sch's gonna start tml le.. want to rest more oso cannot... im feeling restless cos i know the new sem is goin to be hectic n crazy! assignments will pile up like mountain, got to stay back for discussion n stuff after class again.. Arugh~~~ but den on the other hand, i know i should feel blessed and be appreciative wif wad im able to do now... its sem 4 le, i really tot i couldnt make it till sem 4 initially... who knows.. i really want to thank all my friends who hav helped me along the way... be it friends ive made in SIM, or my old friends, they really helped in encouraging me n pull me thru those difficult times.. thank you kelly dillon and jasper for being there, they make school life in SIM a wonderful and sweet one.. i tot it'll be hard to make good friends in SIM but after meeting them i realised im really lucky lo.. if not for kelly's unselfishness in helpin me wif my schoolwork, i guess i wun be here in sem 4 le.. if not for dillon's persuasion, askin me to stay in SIM to give myself one more chance, i guess i wun be in SIM now too.. and jasper, thou not as talkative as dillon, he wld still give the encouragement needed in times of needs. =) even for people like hong jie, dorcus, elvin, weili... thou im not that close wif them as compared to kelly and friends, they are still willing to offer to help too.. if not for them i tink i'll suffer from sudden death due to the increasing pressure gotten from assignments lor... Really grateful to these friends around me who have help me out for the past few semesters... im thankful to have them around... =) friends like szewei, geokting,siokeng and joey, thank you for offering to help and thank you for all those encouragments and concerns! they are great friends who is willing to offer their help as long as its within their limits, even thou they dun hav to. super touched. so, yixian, stop askin urself to give up le, be more positive and stay strong! see, so many friends have helped u wif ur schoolwork in order to come so far, must chiong in sem 4 ah! hais, i will de... but im really worried if i can cope wif all 4 modules leh! scary~ Jia You ah xian!!!!!!!
Went to PS today... spent quite some time in SPOTLIGHTS for DIY materials... materials over there are selling at quite an expensive price... BUT, im SO crazily into BUTTONS lately! i found many cute buttons over there lor, so overwhelm by the different sizes, colours, shapes and designs of buttons they have! but i din manage to find the ones i really need and buy the ones i really like cos buttons are really not that cheap. =( anyway, i got a few buttons frm SPOTLIGHTS after spending a great deal of time choosing the ones i think is special and the ones i think is worth buying. Total cost was around 4 bucks. i was tryin hard to convince myself to give up buying on some other buttons, cos im really broke now.. =( and ya, my well-trained self-control ability works in the end. hais... im goin to look for more stuff for DIY to spend my holidays wisely! ********************************************************************************** AND, i know, results will be out tml.. Hais. and again, super low confident... i roughly know where i stand in this exam already, so i'll be pretty calm when i receive my results tml, i guess? but for sure, the waiting time for the result slip to be fully loaded on screen is torturing! yes, every secs of it sucks. ROAR~~~ aiya, im feelin rotten.
ahhs.. im having holidays now~ feeling kind of slacky and restless, i want to do lots of stuff, but i dunno where to start off wif?!! and arugh, ended my exam quite some time ago. quite shitty i must say. FA paper is rather tricky in some ways. MA, tsk! i din manage to do enough practise.. i know i shld go bang wall, but slow learner like me really needs more time to practise ah.. HR, i memorise all those facts n diagrams like hell.. lastly marketing, i jus give wad i have learnt and memorised,and again, accidents always happen.. to me! chances of me getting a F is not a surprise anymore. sian. well, i've prepared for the worst. and am currently looking for suitable jobs for myself as i know percentages of me gettin into next sem is really low. the thought of me not being able to get thru sem 3 kept flashing pass my mind ever since i started my revision. i know i shouldn't, but i jus couldn't help it. when u loses confident in the stuff u do, u'll tend to think of the negative side wad.. u have to think of a hou lu for urself oso.. during the revision break,i kept askin myself, wad should i do if i really were to flunk out from SIM. im still searching the answer myself. friends who feels angry after reading it, pls dun be. im trying to search. im searching... shhh the results will be out soon in few days time.. and yea, im hopelessly pessimistic about the outcome.
i want to bake. do DIY. catch up wif friends. make money. save money. (my fav hobby) learn guitar. have a skill. be happy. =) (and so many people put they want to be happy in their blog lor, sounds easy but its not lor!)
i jus found out that, being able to save lots of money from my hard earnings makes me feels peace and high! hohoho! last time i always thought im saving purely for the sake of SIM, but seems like is has become a favourite pasttime for me le! wahaha!! but, im broke now leh. =( looks like someones got to find a nice suitable job soon after the results have come out! yixian ah, since there's nothing u can do about changing the grades for ur upcoming results, go start lookin for jobs now and start to change the balance in ur bank account le! im tryin to sound normal, even though its really sad to leave that stupid sch w/o getting a decent cert after payin them so much money...
Haiz... Wads wrong with the weather nowadays? The air smells funny these days.. especially in the morning! Im feeling different everytime i woke up now leh... I dun like this feeling.. Smells so wrong~ And, dunno y, i got this funny feeling that im not goin to do well for the exam paper in this sem, might not be able to continue in SIM!! Really, it just came out of all sudden, so shitty lo.. haiz... =( Was helping my da mei to get rid of the irritating small lizard in the toilet jus now... the lizard so smart lor, know i wun and dun dare to kill him, din run for his life when i uses the pole to scared him sia.. haha..
Its been quite some time since i last blogged le.. been busying with school assignments.. finally, last piece of assignment was handed on HR lesson ytd.. PHEW~ 101% grateful to friends who have helped me in completing my assignments.. 超感动的。。。 Now, i guess im having problem with sleeping early.. Project period is always hectic and stressful.. i tink im used to sleeping at late hrs liao... die... aiya, i go try sleep now
Woohoo~ its the second day of CNY! Ate lots of cookies and meat.. i tink im getting sorethroat soon... ahem... hope by drinking more water can help to lessen the pain im having right now in my throat.. had steamboat with my jiu jiu, jiu mu and cousin bros ytd.. dinner was nice...
played sparkling sticks with my da mei and xiao mei yesterday!!!
my da mei...
my xiaomei....
my funny da mei...
been so long le, still can light up!!! =D
hais, and now, im having slight running nose... im so scared~ =(
Moooo~~~ Happy 牛Year!!! It's Chinese New Year today... Ate lots of meat during the reunion dinner yesterday, so full~ -.- Wish everyone 恭喜发财、万事如意、身体健康、学业进步！^______^
Hmm.. quite accurate except for the math part, my math is never good but i like to count money though~ haha.. Good, i can be useful to my future husband liao.. wahaha!!
i really have to complete one of my assignment by today no matter what.Mr Guk called last night.. i can understand what he mean and how he feels.. well, sometimes things just wouldn't go what we want them to be. i just hope things can get better, chinese new year's coming ya know? Lol..
Went through a long day today.. Morning lesson really drained me out.. Marketing stress me out.. i cant give up, i musn't. i know i know.. Im tired, but so is everybody. People out there might be working hundred times harder than me now, i should learn from them. Just by thinking of those undone projects and assignments can already make my blood pressure goes up. Dunno how to start, dunno how to digest, dunno when will i be able to complete everything.. Im lost, pretty lost. I must hold on. I know, I know.. I may not have good brains, but i can be hardworking to pull myself thru.. I may be slow, but i can have determination to perservere thru.. Yixian ah yi xian.. u gotta learn and understand ok?
Din went for Andy's funeral this morning.. Was struggling between whether to go for morning lesson or his funeral, i chose school in the end.. Hope Andy won't mind.. Sorry Andy.. I wun forget this funny guy..
Received a msg from Tara this morning when i was having my breakfast.. Really shocked me.. Andy is gone le.. He jumped off from building this morning.. I really can't believe it.. Life is so fragile.. So so so fragile.. We used to bicker and joke around almost every time we work together. Tara and i used to have so much fun talking about him. I used to listen to so much of his complains about the work. We used to play around wif nareeni whenever we do closing during weekends... This person, is now gone forever.. His parents should be feeling extremely heart-broken.. This coming chinese new year must be the most miserable one they ever gonna have... Minghui too, his best buddy ever, must be feeling depressed after hearing the news.. No matter what, i hope all his loved ones can pull through this difficult time and carry on with their life soon.. May you rest in peace andy...
