No Mood. No Moon.

well, worklife's been dead boring...
im still at the learning process and making mistakes stage though...
man, i seriously dont't meant to commit these mistakes at times, but i just realised the more i pressurise myself to produce perfect work, the more i screw things up.

hais... =.=

people around have been really nice and patience wif me though... im just worried that one day they may just break down and scream their lungs off at me... lol... sigh...

well im still on probation, and they still have the chance to consider me before the dateline...
i dunno...
a part of me is really sincere and determind to give my best and learn frm my mistakes, yet another part of me really do not wish to become a redundant rookie, causing inconvenience to the ppl around...
its really demoralising at times.... that im starting to qns myself if im suitable for this company or even this industry... but i got a feeling that i'll get better and better as time goes by...
arugh, this feeling sucks!

being a rookie sometimes sucks like hell... cant really tell them the truth without sounding offensive, or else my words may turn to excuses... seriously, who would believe wad a rookie have said? double sian...

i can fully understand why some of the highly paid professionals would bear to give up their job and throw in some impressive amount of money into doing something they really like...
Makes me want to reconsider about my plan and see if that is practical enough to work out...

less mistakes xian! less mistakes!

and tomorrow's a monday... DAMN!