HUAT AH!

Happy Lunar New Year!!!
Gong Hei Fatt Choy!
woohoo!
had lou hei together with my gugu and cousin's family today!
hope everybody will get whatever they want!!! =D

EH HELLO! CAN YOU KILL ME PLEASE???

Someone kill me please...

i truly deserve to be shot to death...

im the worst pathetic idiot ever?????!!!

just as when i thought my pathetic life is gonna be over and luck seems to be on my way, here i am back to square one AGAIN! ARUGHHHHH...

last wednesday i received a call frm an agency, responding to one of the position that i've applied for, this guy asked me if i would like to take up this job... and of course, i said yes. i tink i can give it a try since there still is an interview for me to go.

but before that, i was told to go for an interview with the agency first the next day, so i did.

on last thursday, while on my way heading to the agency, i received another call frm another agency!

this lady here did not mentioned clearly to me on what is the position that she is responding to but asked if i can go down to tampines for an interview session after me informing her that im actually already outside on my way to an interview...

Well, everything went smoothly as it is on that day itself generally...

except maybe for the second one, i was kind of tired and restless after the first interview and long distance travelling journey... this second interview that i went for took rather long time and asked lots of questions that i never thought an agency would ask... there are moments when my mind just turned blank for a few seconds... or stumble over a question...etc.

man, its been ages since i attended an proper interview, rusty skills now... =(

nonetheless, i must admit that i wasnt fully prepared for the interview la... however, i feel thankful for this second interview as all those questions that they asked me have given me a really good experience to roughly know what kind of questions to expect from my potential employer for the next interview!

anyway, an interview was arranged for me by the first agency... the consultant told me that the company needed to find a replacement immediately, and if the interview is successful, the company may need me to start work the next day!

imagine how thrill i felt at that moment!

i dunno y, i just feel that i have a high chance of getting employed by the company after that interview with the first agency... so confident that i actually got the cheek to turn down a job offered by the second agency! but of cos i must prefer the working environment and position offered to me enough to reject the latter one...

NOW I FEEL DAMN GUILTY AND STUPID TO THINK BACK ABOUT THIS.

boohoo! =(

i got so anxious and excited over the interview with my potential employer that is gonna be held on monday. so i went to get myself new clothes for my interview and work the next day...

That Friday, i felt so nervous while shopping for clothes that whole day, worrying about the interview, about the 2 interviewers that is going to interview me, about what kind of image must i put up in front of my potential employer on monday...etc. den i realised i got 2 missed calls from 2 different unknown caller! at this point of time, it is obvious to me that those 2 different numbers are from 2 different companies! my friends never use their residential phone to call me, it cant be numbers from strangers too! chances are, these 2 numbers could be from my 2 different potential employers too! all the good things were happening too fast to me at that moment! i was happy one!

BUT ME, BEING SUCH A STUPID ASSHOLE ACTUALLY HESITATE IF I SHOULD CALL BACK TO WIDEN MY JOBS OPPORTUNITY!

TO MAKE THINGS WORST, I ACTUALLY DIDN'T CALL BACK IN THE END! RAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

not that i am very sure that i can get the job after the interview on monday, im just afraid that what if i called back and arrange for another 2 interview but really got hired after the interview on monday and need to start work the very next day??? will i get black-listed if i tell them that i cant attend the interview cos i've actually gotten a job?

wahlau eh yi xian!!!! so what if this is the case??? what's wrong with that???? even so, they can just cancel my name out from the list and start interviewing the rest of the potential candidate what! its not like they have decided to hire and signed a contract with me but i go accept another offer what! its not betrayal! who cares???

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING THEN??!

now that the interview on monday is over...

the lady told me to wait for her call, which is like never.

here i am, continuing to search for jobs in front of my lappy again... haiz...

i got so gan chiong about my new job that i went crazy searching for office wear all over jp and anchorpoint last week lor! spent quite a lot on that too! =(

though the money is spend on the clothes that i would buy sooner or later, but still.... aiyer! =(

im like, killing myself softly with my own stupidity! T.T

how stupid a person can get?

yes, look at me and u will know. -.-

im like the dumbest idiot ever!

really feel like killing myself...

Just let me die.