A Sunny day is a Happy day.

there's something i wanted to blog abt in mind for a long time... but today's weather is too good, and it'll be so wasted for me to skip it, so i've decided to leave the stuff that i've always wanted to blog for some other day.... wahahaha...

woke up at 7.30am this morning by 2 thunderous alarm ringing beside me.
wad a pleasant surprise, i tot i wun be able to wake up this early for jogging as i couldnt sleep last night till abt 5am. woo~ i got up from the bed wif a smile and hurrily get to the kitchen to brush my teeth and wash up my face.... look out from the kitchen window and there comes the sunny weather! the little park situated in front of my blk looked so alive! love the way sun shines onto the piece of greenery. its golden! beautiful. woohoo~ =) turned on the radio and tuned in to class95 while preparing for my breakfast.

Lovely sunny weather + nutella bread & scrambled egg + jason mraz's music = GOOD DAY!

hais, wads more to ask for for a delightful morning like this? seriously, i tink the sun makes a good start for the day... it brightens up a emo person like me easily just like that! ISNT THAT MAGICAL??? HAHA. sounds stupid to know a person like me can actually say that. but, i like! =D well, headed down to the park for a run wif sis,aka yy... love the smell of the breeze, nice~ though its kind of embarrassing to know that we have only run for 4 rounds around the park, and we were panting like hell. haha.. like the warm down exercise today though. enjoy gossiping and making fun of ourselves and the aunties around wif sis. heehee.
went to jp for lunch wif yy in the afternoon. we wanted to take nice healthy meal in banquet but dunno y ended up wif long john silvers combo meal instead leh. how healthy we are wif our diet plan! LOL! all the fats we had burnt in the morning have come back le. -.-

ive been feeling pretty down and confused lately after the release of result on last fri... i dun feel like doin anything now. but i know i cant. and i hate it. i know i need to do something other than working hard for macro.. wad is it? wad else shld i do? i wanna work, but i feel like im trapped. 很辛苦！
i feel pretty good today thou, i guess the good weather this morning played an impt role.
太阳公公，谢谢你。=)
lets hope for a better tml! can i have the same sun for tml too, pls?
and hope i can get up early! =D

Im a worrier.

received a false alarm from lujun this afternoon...
nearly freak out when she msg me and say result will be out today.
was feeling so lost after that msg cos i wasn't fully mentally prepared for it...
den kelly msged me at 5 plus saying portal says result's gonna come out tml, not today...
PHEW... ok, i know today or tml is not goin to make any difference to my grades but still... haiz...
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im born to be a worrier i guess...
i know whats done cannot be undone, i still couldnt help but to feel nervous and worried cos its been so long afterall... i've been worrying about getting through to the next sem after every exam in every semester... now that im already in sem 5, there's no further semester for me to worry about the promotion, i worry about graduating... the thought of not being able to get the cert even after coming so far to sem 5 is really scary... what happens if i fail all? the fees for retaking the modules will be so huge... alright, results are not even out yet and here i am cursing myself already... how great, haha.
few days ago i recalled the answers that i've written for my law paper, i realised that i actually could have given a better answer and explaination! oh dear...... =( mirco is killing me too, not that the paper is that tough, but wif such a great lecturer, failing his moudule again will be really disappointing and so much wasted... for macro, i didnt know it can be pretty interesting until the last few lecture and during the revision... i know wif more effort i can do better, well... ISB is really unexpected, i really cant gauge how well or bad i can score cos the tips given are not that accurate as expected... im hoping for the marker to be generous and kind to us... i jus need to pass, thats all...
this is so bad... how am i supposed to spend my whole day tml without worrying about the result? i know, im not goin to stop worrying till the result is out tml... but, this is torturing... i feel no good at all... =(

Long entry. Im Blessed. Thank You all.

9th sept 2009
lia and gang held a belated birthday celebration for me and her POP celebration ytd nite.
happened to reach vivo earlier than the expected time.
lia told me to meet her friend 1st but i chose to linger around the photo gallery nearby the toilet instead for the fear of awkwardness. Lol..
few mins past, everyone, except for szewei and huizhen, was finally there and ready to go.
we head down to brotzeit german bier bar restaurant for dinner.
the ambience over there was nice.
we sat, and lia's buddy place the order.
4 dishes was served.
i certainly have no idea what the dishes were called as all the names of the dishes are in german. However, their food was fab i must say.
brotzeit's famous pig's knuckle is really huge, and most impressive discovery is, i never thought pork could taste this way. haha..
i like the sausages, the fries, the mustard, the bread thingy but no, not the beer.
i tot the beer in this restaurant is gonna taste totally different from my daddy's kind of beer. i tot it's gonna taste special... maybe taste like some sort of sweet drinks or something.
but i tink i was tinking too much. haha... like no difference at all leh. =P
it's such a pity cos raymond says their beer goes well with the pig knuckle.
well, i just couldnt accept the taste, cant finish it, too bad lor. haha...
everybody was chatting while i was busying enjoying the meal and listening to their stories and jokes. i tink they tot i was feeling bored, but no worries, i wasnt. in fact, i really had fun listening. =)
asked lia when will szewei be coming cos i rmbed sw called and told me that she'll be late, but i realised she's been pretty late already.
szewei finally reached when the dinner was abt to end.
she brought me present. =)
its a bag from lia , szewei and huizhen! thank you so much girls... really. =)
lia was asking me if i want to order some desserts cos raymond is ordering his.
i told her no, i was really full.
ok, the next moment when i lift up my head or something, i saw the waiter holding onto the cake in front of me. then i hear friends singing birthday song for me.
oh, lia and weng hua say they have actually prepared the cake b4 we met.
thank you weng hua. thank you lia. =)
i feel really.... erm, i cant describe the feeling. its a mixture of joy, happiness, love, touched, appreciative, gratefulness... maybe it sounds a bit exaggerating, but u have no idea how does it feels like to receive such a pleasant little surprise from friends who means so so much to you especially at times when you were feeling really down and really hopeless.
i can look really emotionless sometimes when im feeling happy, sad or angry. maybe i looked calm last nite, but i was having goosebumps on my back when i receive the surprise. the joy i was experiencing inside me is definitely 10 times better than the way i reacted last nite. HAHAHA...
even though its kinda embarrassing to have other ppl staring at you, i appreciate that.. hee..

NEXT STOP: Yellow Jello retro bar.
my 1st time stepping into a bar...
tried their drink, called yellow zlingy i tink.
nice taste.
listened to their band.
nice music.
learnt a new game.
患难见真情。Cecilia Lee Zhao Xuan, i lub uuu! =D
went to the toilet.
nice smell.
too many ppl i dunno, luckily i have szewei. =)

went home wif sw cos find it too late for double o.. we bidded goodbye wif wenghua, head off to the station... sw's bf waited for us at outram. this funny couple helped to end my day wif laughter, thank you sw and yq! =)

this entry is long simply cos i want to rmb every single bit of this lovely day. since ive already mentioned so many thank you in this entry le, might as well say more. ok, thank you lia, thank you weng hua, thank you huizhen, thank you szewei, thank you raymond, thank you.... sylvester? whatever it is, jus wanna thank those who have wished me happy birthday! xie xie!
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went to catch The Time Traveller's Wife today wif liyi... i can understand why some ppl dun like this movie. but still, i personally tink that this movie is worth watching. love the kind of love they hold. im touched. =)

Sunshine after Rain.

i tink i know the reason.
the problem is kinda solved. im relieved. =D
perharps its me, i really need to learn how to talk things out.
that caught me by surprise, im kinda impressed.
im hoping for the best.

thank you all for the birthday wishes.
thank you for remembering my birthday, im really touched.
God bless.
and here i am,
Happy again. =)

I have nothing.

it's my birthday tml.
im not happy at all.why?
i have no idea.its terrible.

sometimes, saying sorry cant solve the problem, nor would it make you feel better...
u will never learn, never.
habit is. a scary thing.
im not breathing.
i need strength.
u'll never understand.