Not Calling Back.

Mood has been like a roller coaster lately...
first, calls start to fill in whenever i start losing hope...
then my heart was filled with so much faith and hope after each call and interview...
as days goes by, level of confidence and faith starts to drop again...
den other calls came in...
cycle goes on and on...

i was pretty happy to be called back for a 2nd interview initially...
i waited and waited...
ending each day with no reply is really scary and disappointing...
receiving calls frm numbers that i do not wish to see is annoying as well...
"well, they need some time to do the selection afterall... give them some time!"
thats how i force myself to stay positive at the end of each day...

its friday already.
that "see you!" is obviously coming out of courtesy, no hidden meaning.
they arent gonna call back.
thats for sure now.

perhaps i shld have given a better answer...
perhaps i shld gave them my super wide smile throughout that interview...
perhaps i shld have requested to arrange for the interview at another day cos come on, its a friday evening!
perhaps... perhaps... perhaps...

everything just went so perfectly right...
i feel so comfortable when i first step in there...
from their cleaner, to security guard, to the 3 interviewers and then the assistant director...
they were all so nice and sweet...
i totally feel right in there...
they offer everything i have always been looking for... literally everything.

i shldnt have pin on so much hope on it...
seriously, heart sinks to my belly already... =.=

career fair today wasnt as good as i expected.
same old thing with what i usually found on the web.
no wonder i feel an energy around me making me feel so reluctant to go the day before... sigh...

i am tired.
really tired le...
i really have no idea when can i ever get a job...

is finding a job that can let me stay for long in order to enable me to save up for my uni fees with the time limit set by myself that difficult?

well, seeing the rate that im moving at... i guess, it must be a definite yes.
hais...

oh crap, just by tracking back a few of my recent blog entries, i found out that i've been so emo and vexed all these while... its so annoying to see that... but i find it a superb place to vent out my frustrations though...

I have like... no tomorrow?